"Sometimes people are nothing. You make them something & when they become something, they feel that you are nothing :)"
HI.
I am not in the mood to give a warm welcome nor explanation for not blogging for God knows how long.
You know. I hate a kind of friend. The kind of friend who takes me for granted. Honestly, I do not mind doing lots of stuffs(little things) to bond a better friendship. However, things get on me when later on, I was left isolated or abandoned when all I want is just to have a friend to talk to. It is not much to ask for that, is it? I felt being toyed and unappreciated. You, may feel thankful and grateful for what I did at that particular moment but what happens after that? As if you lost memory or sort. I wonder, when you are being cool towards me or even ignore me, did you reminisce the memories between our friendship? I can say, you do not think twice before you act. You did not think how much I have done for you that you can just dumped me aside now. I regret. I regret for doing so much for the friendship. Not once nor the first time I am feeling so, but many times that it is countless now! I have got enough. I am sick to get such treatment from friends I called, buddies! I can swear, most of the times, I was purely innocent BEING IGNORED like whatthefuck? You can know and realize when you are being ignored by a particular person and sometimes, I pretend as if nothing is going wrong and secretly trying to fix things back. One thing I hate about myself is that I am too loyal to friends. When a friendship happens to fade away, that is when the thick-faced me being so ridiculously annoying and bug my friend. Friends, if you do not like the way I treat you(my friends), just tell me. I will stop. :(
Besides, I have a habit to send out long meaningful messages to my beloved friends on certain special days. The reason is because I want to remind them at intervals on how much I appreciate to have them in my life and etc. I believe every humans will feel pleased to know that there are people out there who appreciate their existence. :')
But why oh why. I feel no returns. Not that I wish to get returns for whatever I do but at times, I feel unimportant at all. :\ Mind me, people get emotional once a while. Btw, today is Pre-Valentines. I wish all of you out there to spread loves around and FEEL IN RETURN.
♥